I pushed it too much

Yesterday I decided to show my wife a video clip of Bojana who owns a slave 24/7. I showed her this

She was disgusted to say the least! She was angry and she hurt me!

She now connected all the dots and told me if this is where I am leading her then no way. She doesn't want to see me on my knees, she can't tolerate humiliation, she wants a man at her side, someone who say 'yes' and also 'no' - a partner.

Our conversation was as always - she = angry, me = apologizing, humble, trying to explain... - the dom-bitch relation that we always had. It's just that when it becomes graphic - it's her limit. She despise it. I was shocked at her reaction - I thought she understood and was aware but I then discovered that she didn't really like it when I wash her legs, kneeling in front of her. While it's fun to have the feet washed - she was having me on my knees just for my pleasure - not hers... I was exaggerating!

I told her that she got it all wrong. Our 'new' relationship is all about her. If she doesn't feel comfortable with having me kneeling then no kneeling. She needs to understand that my pleasure is when she's pleasured and if it's not something that she wants then no. She was understanding.

Still - I think I understand now that I won't get from this relationship the humiliation that I need. And I wonder where this relationship is heading.

Time will tell.

I want you to know a secret...

Thursday we went to the beach on sunset. We sat there alone and I started explaning her my view of what female domination is. She was very cooperative. She listened and asked questions. I decided I shall introduce her to this world very gradually - I decided to show her 12 pictures and I chosed them carefully. No caning, no OTK, few as possible collars and whips. Just wanted her to see how humble and subservient men can be. She confirmed that she understands what I am talking about. Here are the pics...